Staying In

I celebrate life everyday, blessed to be a female, to be loved, respected and decisive. Lately, I have been hard on myself. Sometimes I say negative things about my life that are not true. Why? Because sometimes I am uncomfortable and unable to deal with the natural rhythm of my life.I let myself think. Oh and you know, you can get carried away if you let yourself.
I do what I can to make things happen. Now, I just need to let them happen. I pray, I create, I worship and praise my Creator, my Moon ,and Prana. Growing up was rough. I had to learn all over again. I had to teach myself how to be a respected individual, be responsible and learn to be positive.Yes, it all began a few years back. So I am like a new born in my adult years.
Realizing the truth about people you care about can be difficult. My biggest and toughest struggle has been dealing with my father. I love him but I can't change him or anything he has done. I can't make it right for him or anyone else. I can only for me. But I can be your sunshine, I can do that.
I am growing older and some of the things that were important to me just aren't anymore. I no longer want to make anyone's problem my problems.But,I wanna help them stay strong and positive. It doesn't mean I love them any less but really, why do I want that energy. I am sensitive enough to begin with and I have been this way for as long as I can remember. I have worked on not being so much so,now. I can't believe I ever wanted to be in the first place. This must be because of my desire to want everything to work out, be okay, be alright.
I am only going to be me. A wonderful, positive, encouraging connoisseur of life. Tonight I am going to spend the holiday away from the bar. I am going to cook a traditional dish and have a glass of wine. I'm going to make a toast to you, Universe.

Hello Universe, I feel so much better and I must give thanks to Mother Nature and the Stinging Nettle for all their wonderful benefits. I had Nettle tea while I read my book last night. When I was done reading I meditated and gave thanks to all the wonderful herbs that were created under the Sun and the Moon for us to heal our bodies.I woke up without that awful cough that's been the center of my pain for the last few days. RELIEVED! It's amazing to have the joy you experience after a bad experience. You have a desire to conquer and make all the wrongs, right. You have a new attitude and a strong sense of passion to live a lovely life. Yay,I said I wanted to feel better sooner than later and I do! I do!

Another thing I love to do is share. It is my birth month and there is lots to check out. Here are a few shows happening in Seattle.


High Ceiling
May 1 2009 9:00P
SPRINGFEST Shelton, Washington


Vast Void
May 9 2009 9:00P
The Monkey Pub Seattle University District, Washington

Indecisive Rhythm
May 14 2009 9:00P
Ms. Rhythm’s Birthday Bash/Costume Party at the Funhouse w/Perfume, Ripspacer & All Bets On Death Seattle



I will have more for you to check out. My band is playing on the 16th. Details will be posted soon.

Have a great weekend!

An Afternoon in the Park with Mextacy

I decided to put a video together of my visit to Gasworks Park in 2008. Since I'm all blah n' stuff I checked out the remix option for videos on Photobucket and I think it's awesome! It was so fun and easy to use.Check it out.

This cough has got the best of me. The buzz in my head won't go away and I feel so sensitive. So vulnerable and receptive. Yuck! I'll feel better soon but I hope it's sooner than later.

Yesterday, I had a great time at practice. My friend really liked the new material we had as well as the some of the tunes she heard before with a new attitude. Vocal classes go a long way ;)She joined in on Damaged and harmonized with me.We are working on the chorus and the big blow out and the end of the song. FUN!
When were were done I stuck around after to check out the Metal band who shares our practice space with us, Hidden Casualties.They are also good Friends. Ben,their singer, just got back from Arizona. It was their first practice in 6 months. It was rockin'! When they were done Jared took Nell's place and got on the drums and Chris has his guitar strapped,Levi played his bass and I grabbed the mic.We jammed out and I got all metal. It was hardcore!!!

Wookie ba Nub

Okay, the title is ridiculous but it's ridiculously funny to me and sometimes life seems to be just that. I've had the opportunity to interview with a few cafes' while being sick and doing my best to not make it obvious. Thank the Lord I haven't had a cough attack or sneezing fest while speaking with these people.To be honest, there has been no chemistry with any of the hiring managers. No personality. Okay, too harsh? Whatever. It's important to have that with people you will be working with on a daily basis.

The interview I had yesterday was a Group Interview and for some weird reason I was nervous. I realized just how much is riding on me to get a job. The pressure was intense. I know I have lots to do and hey, I am doing it, giving it my absolute and complete attention. I have to bust out a list just to keep myself in check, jeez. Today I had to cancel an interview cause I missed my bus and realized what a disaster it would be if I was ever in that situation and actually on my way to work. Ah, ridiculous!

This morning I looked into financial aid, filled out my FASFA and called a few schools in the area. I found out what I need to do in order to get registered in classes for the Summer and the Fall quarter, it requires a trip to SCCC and some money and then a trip to HCC some money and then scheduling a time to meet with an Advisor. Have you caught on, yet. Yes, I am over it. I am defiantly looking forward to acquiring skills that are in demand. Coffee is too but I want to be and educated ex-barista with an AAS or an AAA and eventually get a BA or BS. I am working on being enrolled and wow just thinking of all the fun and studying puts me at ease. That's right, something to look forward to that I worked my butt off for, right on!

I've got practice today and I'm excited to see what my band mate has been working on. He went to LA this past weekend and is mega inspired. I've been working on a few ideas myself. We will have one of my good friends coming by to see what we've been working on. Once upon a time we talked about working together so we may wind up doing that. I decided against looking for back-up singers and just focus on finding someone to work with us as a band member, a singer-songwriter. I'd like to work someone as passionate as I am, who want to be a performer and play shows. This could be sweet. lol

Photo by Veronica Silva

Follow this link to see what Wookie ba Nub is all about

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nHiZ15x6Vt4

Starving Artist

Yeah now I definitely know what that means, a starving artist. Busy, busy, busy. Looking for a job is a job, no doubt. I've been auditioning back-up vocalists and guitarists as well. Like I said,busy. I've made new friends and my relationships are wonderful. The worst part about being jobless is no income and money can affect relationships especially when you have a debt with some one. I've kept my faith strong and I've communicated which is essential. That is all I can do. Let's not forget about praying. I'm doing that, too.

Okay, so, performances. Yes, I have some coming up. Oyo and I have decided on a name for our band. The Second Scene. In May we will be performing at the La Cantina Benefit with Veritas and a few other bands. In June we will be hosting a Dance Party for two nights at the Picking on the Hoh Festival campground where some of my favorite NW bands will be performing. High Ceiling ans Indecisive Rhythm will be there. In July we are organizing a show in Downtown Seattle and in August we will be playing with Disillusion at the Station 56 in Tacoma. We've been talking to other bands about booking show together so I am certain that we will have at least 2-3 shows a month for the Summer. This makes me happy.

Art : Vaginica by Shaun Karry

Having a Blast

How exciting?! I've been loving all the changes that have been taking place in my life and it's wonderful to recognize all the steps I have taken towards a more positive me. After I quit my job in January I was relieved. I no longer had to dread dealing with a boss who had no people or management skills nor did I have hold my breath or my tongue while she continued to change the prices with out any notice. Alright, yes, I was looking forward to finding a job that was well staffed, experienced and encouraged positive ethics.... I still am.

The job search continues. I really didn't think that I would still be unemployed as of today. I figured with the industry I have the best expertise in and the jobs I've been applying for would be the most in demand. Turns out that industry is hiring but the jobs that are readily available are the ones that have "themes". You know the ones I am talking about, "No experience needed must wear a bikini and be flirty" The Peepshow stands, that's what I call them. Although I am a beautiful Lady I would not ever work at these coffee stands, no thank you!

I almost couldn't deal with all this free time I've had. A few weeks ago, I felt like I was in a black hole because my efforts to find a job seemed useless. Forget that noise! I changed it up. You see, that is not all I have going for me. I have great friends and a Man in my life who give it to me straight. Lately I've been working hard on my success as a vocalist and songwriter. I just stepped it up and started working on that "To Do List" that I had not got the chance to work on for my music project. Things are coming together and my efforts to have a band and start performing within the next month are just around the corner.

So, even if I don't have a job working in a cafe sharing a smile and something new, I have music to share with the world and inspiration all around me.

The Sky Inspires Me

On this rock, I sit high

Embracing the Moon, the night,

where I listen to the echo of silence.

The energy is louder than the voices that once cluttered my mind.

I have fallen like the rain and drowned in emotions.

The joy to shine like the Sun has entered my Spirit,

reminding me it is I who has chosen my Destiny.

Our reflection conquers all.