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Banging my Head Against the Wall

 I had the same conversation with the same person way too many times over the weekend. Listening to the same excuses over and over again. Wondering if the person in front of me could ever come to grips with reality and stop blaming others for her attitude and actions.

  The opportunity to change and start over can be done at anytime. We have a way of convincing ourselves otherwise and giving in to absurd ideas of ourselves and our future. Worrying the hell out of everything. Ummm...No,thank you!

Why not get excited about the possibilities? We can really surprises ourselves when we change our way of thinking from that "My life sucks." attitude to " Wow, life is good." attitude.

 I know that there so many wonderful things to be discovered about yourself. You have to want to be all those wonderful things and take a chance. 

Discover your true-self. 

Be inspired. 

Don't copy everything you see out there. 

Make it yours and share it. 

Be proud and happy.

I would really like to share a link with you. I found it while reading my favorite magazine Voice of Choices. The article by Sandy Brewer lifted my spirit. And now when I feel like I need nourishment for my worn out state of being I turn to it. I could not find the direct link for the article but here are a few great links nonetheless.

Sandy Brewer, www.pursuitoflight.com

Voice of Choices

Enjoy

Ear Candy

The New

It's been over a year since my last post. The month of my last post I found out I was pregnant. JOY! Yes! JOY! I was moving in to new place with the Man I love. Recorded music and created new songs with amazing talented people. Started a job doing what I love to do. We were starting a family. So many wonderful new things were going on. I could barely wrap my head around it all. Well the same happened with all the bad things,too.
In my fifth month of pregnancy I got the worst sciatica ever. It was likely that I got it from all the standing I did at work combined with all the weight I gained. I'm not complaining about the weight; I was working on having one healthy and beautiful baby. I didn't mind the work. I wanted to work I just couldn't stand all the pain! I had to stop working out so I wouldn't overdo it completely then I had to stop working altogether. It was the beginning of a lot of changes that were going to be hard for me to deal with. Staying home?
Boo!
Not my favorite thing to do. I guess it wouldn't have been so bad if I could get around. But the pain I had from the sciatica and the swelling feet counted out comfortable walks and ummm basically anything was physical. The worst thing ever! Totally not cool. While I was whining about all the things I couldn't do. Shaun enrolled himself in school and had started working and attending ITT full-time. I was proud of how he stepped up. A few weeks after we found out about our little one growing inside of me he made the decision to make a change that would benefit our family. He has discovered his passion for learning and has chosen to keep going all the way. Way to go, Manbaby! Spiral out!
I think that though all I was really counting on good things to happen immediately. I was looking for an outlet and then gave up as easily as I hoped for one. I started to get angry about everything. Especially about how lonely I felt. Depression soon set in and all I could do was deny that I was. That made it harder to deal with. While doing my worst at looking on the upside, the days seemed to get longer and my due date seemed like it couldn't come soon enough.
My sweet Baby Girl arrived on 10/10/10. I ended up having a Cesarean section because she wasn't head down when I went into labor. Until this day I am still recovering from the c-section. My body still has a long way to go as well. I do as much is possible considering how busy I am. I am working on my strength every day while Lilliana is helping me pace myself.

Dancing in Neptune's Song

I really am enjoying the rhythm of my life. One move changed so much for me. When it got rough I reminded myself that LOVE was constant. There was a time when I let anger take charge and the ability to control my feelings seemed impossible. Living with the Man I love and who has unconditionally loved me has been exciting.

We are two people who never want to stop learning especially if it means we are better for it. I am learning how to love and how to communicate better.

I have such a big heart. I love to give, to help and to listen. My new job gives me the opportunity to do these things that make me happy in turn. I am passionate about what I do which is what I have been looking forward to doing for some time now.

I haven't forgotten about all the ways that have helped me get to this point. I have reconnected with the sources that have blessed me.

The days ahead are filled with wonderful stories to share.

Photo by: Veronica Marie Silva

Everyday Celebrate

I spent almost seven months without a job. During those months I discovered a lot about myself and my loved ones. Writing lyrics and jamming out helped me to unleash the disappointment I had with my search. My friends were supportive and have always been without a doubt wonderful. There is so much that I love and appreciate. I respect the cycles of life and all the experiences ahead of me. I am not ever going to give a dream, not ever.
I've got a lot of living to do. My new job is the best job for me,now. I have been creating other things to explore and facing the challenges that I've conveniently put off. So, yes, I am finally going to take driving classes. More than likely I will be ready to be on the road when the rain starts. I foresee myself driving to places where the Sun shines.
Yay.

Hello Friends

I found a job! Things are going great and I'd love to share them with you. Stay tuned!